Loss in the Locust Year
A year of loss. Is God safe to trust in the midst of darkness?
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My Sink Runneth Over
Musings from the mess of holy motherhood.
Homemaking - and homefailing - with a healthy dose of grace for the journey.
Stephanie
Mar 186 min read
Oh Man - How to lose a child in 940 weeks (or less)
Once upon a time, not so very long ago, I lost my oldest boy. It was summer. He'd packed a handful of clothes, a good pocketknife, and...
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Stephanie
Dec 25, 20237 min read
No Home for the Holidays
On October 31st, we sold our house. It was profitable to do so. It was probably wise in the long run, and hopefully a way to create a...
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Stephanie
Jul 28, 20235 min read
The Land of the Living
How do we live with God when we're staring death in the face?
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Stephanie
Aug 22, 20223 min read
Eternity in my heart
Miscarriage and the goodness of God in the land of the living. Note: viewer discretion is advised for the photo of a preborn baby. The...
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Stephanie
Jun 25, 202212 min read
Roe, Roe, Roe Your Vote, Gently Up the Stream. Thoughts on Lots of Offspring from my Kitchen Sink.
I recently announced that I was pregnant. Again. I hit 2 months of gestation with baby number 8 the day Roe. Vs. Wade was overturned in...
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Stephanie
Jun 8, 20223 min read
The Most Expensive Pregnancy Test Ever (and why I'm happy about it)
Here am I and the children God has given me.
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Stephanie
Feb 20, 20225 min read
The Real Midlife Crisis
Thoughts of turning 40 and making every moment count
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Stephanie
Jul 20, 20214 min read
It takes a village
Motherhood fact: parenting a horde of children can be lonely. It’s an odd juxtaposition, but the amount of children you have can be...
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Stephanie
Jun 20, 20212 min read
Build Me a Son
This is the prayer of a father. General Douglas MacArthur Was surrounded by challenges in the Philippines during World War II. As Supreme...
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Stephanie
May 13, 20214 min read
The Day My Sink Actually Ranneth Over
I often claim that the altar where I worship the Lord best is my kitchen sink. Not really joking. Prayers rise with the steam and bubbles...
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Stephanie
May 9, 20216 min read
Best Laid Plans
That is where God meets mothers after all - right in the midst of the mess.
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Stephanie
Apr 12, 20216 min read
We All With Unveiled Sharpie
This is the sharpie marker cover I found outside the closet in my 3 year old's room. Just the cover. No marker. I know now that few...
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Stephanie
Mar 19, 20213 min read
Boys to Men
My first son. My first teenager. He turned 15 yesterday. He signed up for drivers Ed on the eve of his birthday, paying for it out of his...
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Stephanie
Jan 14, 20214 min read
Johnny Carson and a Sense of Humanity
Ben is home from the hospital. The emergency visit was an emergency. His brain was filling up with fluid and needed surgical...
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Stephanie
Jan 2, 20213 min read
Coulda shoulda woulda and an ambulance ride
If I could live 2020 over again...
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Stephanie
Dec 24, 20203 min read
The Moment
Christmas Eve. I’m taking a moment between cooking and cleaning and 2 year old neediness to reminisce. Most of my Decembers, at least...
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Stephanie
Nov 29, 20202 min read
Thankful November. For the Usual.
Business as usual. We survived the holiday. Now, it’s back to work, back to life. As normal, my husband got up to prepare for work. I...
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Stephanie
Nov 26, 20203 min read
Thankful November. For the Brotherhood.
As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend. Proverbs 27:17 With six boys in my house, countenances can get...
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Stephanie
Nov 24, 20203 min read
Thankful November. For a Year.
Yeah, it’s often been a challenge to be thankful for 2020. We have family members who’ve stopped speaking to us. Others would like to see...
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Stephanie
Nov 21, 20201 min read
Thankful November. For Stuff.
Simplicity is attractive. Minimalism is growing (I love oxymorons, heheh...) Marie Kondo has earned her following. But I am not one of...
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Stephanie
Nov 19, 20203 min read
Thankful November. For the Motherhood.
Life without friends is poor indeed. I am an introvert, but even so, I can look back on my life and see the impact of other women on it....
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Stephanie
Nov 18, 20201 min read
Thankful November. For Parents
For parents-turned-grandparents. I won’t have a mom and dad forever. Some days I take them for granted. But they’re not so young any...
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Stephanie
Nov 14, 20202 min read
Thankful November. For A Story.
I don’t want to call it a testimony. Because for years I didn’t think I really had one. Aren’t those stories of young adults saved from...
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Stephanie
Nov 13, 20203 min read
Thankful November. For The Love.
Love. I’m not talking about the butterflies in my stomach kind, the Valentines Day roses, the Hollywood kind. Not today. I’m talking...
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Stephanie
Nov 10, 20201 min read
Thankful November. For Him.
Because marriage is a union of two good forgivers. And he’s very gracious. Because he was willing to travel the world with me, and also...
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Stephanie
Nov 9, 20202 min read
Thankful November. For A Name.
Most of the names of my children have meaning. Some are from the Bible. (Shiloh, Joshua, Beniah, Benjamin). Some are from Godly men of...
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Stephanie
Nov 8, 20204 min read
Thankful November. For Education.
Public school education was made compulsory throughout America one century ago (plus two years). Pilgrims recognized the worth of an...
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Stephanie
Nov 8, 20202 min read
Thankful November. For Internet (yes really).
I remember the first time I accessed the internet. The local library in my small town had set up a computer. Are you old enough to you...
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Stephanie
Nov 6, 20201 min read
Thankful November. For Her.
I was shocked when the ultrasound tech told me it wasn’t a boy. Boys were all I knew. I’d earned some street cred from a decade in the...
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Stephanie
Nov 5, 20202 min read
Thankful November. For Movement.
My quadriplegic friend from college died last year. And ten years ago we found out we were having a paraplegic son. Up until meeting...
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Stephanie
Nov 4, 20203 min read
Thankful November. For Food.
Do you eat when you’re anxious? I know the excuse about magnesium in chocolate being good for relaxing. It’s a great excuse; I have no...
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Stephanie
Nov 3, 20202 min read
Thankful November. For Light.
After a month of vibrant New England color, I woke to a monochromatic world. Black and white in the predawn light, the pristine blanket...
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Stephanie
Nov 2, 20203 min read
Thankful November. For Peace.
Today, November 2, I am thankful for peace. Oh how I love quiet Monday mornings. I mean, I would love them, if they existed. The rooster,...
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Stephanie
Nov 1, 20204 min read
Thankful November. For Church.
This month, I will purpose to be thankful every day. November is beginning on a Sunday in 2020, and it finds me in fellowship at church....
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Stephanie
Sep 27, 20204 min read
Notoriously SBD (silent, but deadly)
It is not time to go woke. It is time for the church to awaken!
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Stephanie
Aug 3, 20203 min read
Mere Science
It comes in waves. Some days you look at the wild eyed, half-naked creatures running across the lawn and wonder, “Who are these children...
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Stephanie
Jul 1, 20207 min read
Identity
My two youngest sons are named after Civil War generals. Well, their middle names are. Names are important, part of the definition of our...
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Stephanie
Apr 15, 20205 min read
Covid Operation
I've had extra time to read recently. A mixed blessing. My kids have had more time to go Lord of the Flies around the house. Without...
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Stephanie
Mar 29, 20204 min read
The Church in Thy House
It's 8:00 Sunday morning. The Corona virus social distancing adventure that is our life right now makes this day different from normal...
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Stephanie
Oct 19, 20185 min read
Soggy Manna: thoughts on puddles and provision
It was Thursday. I pushed a wet cart through crowded aisles. There were children everywhere, grabbing items off shelves, poking each...
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Stephanie
Sep 27, 20187 min read
Tiny Orbit: What You Really Need For a New Baby
My world shrinks after having a baby. Adding another human to the earth does increase the population, but for me it means that life will...
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Stephanie
Sep 19, 20187 min read
Prophet Margins
The home school year is in full swing once again. I managed the annual culling of coverless markers and broken crayons. Everyone in the...
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Stephanie
Jul 30, 20184 min read
Always is A Lot
I am mom. I am so very very mom. I’m pretty sure I could officially change my name to “Mom” and no one would flinch. I even get junk mail...
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Stephanie
Mar 9, 20187 min read
Better Than Seven (A Birth Story)
Come to Me, all you who labor – and I will give you rest. -Matthew 11:28 (This is a birth story, complete with all the guts and glory. ...
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Stephanie
Feb 3, 20185 min read
Rogue Seven
Here we are. I’ve been pregnant 36 weeks. It’s the home stretch. I will meet our newest offspring in about a month! See me waddle....
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Stephanie
Dec 8, 20175 min read
Out from There
“Then He brought us out from there, to bring us in…” Deuteronomy 6:23 photo by Aura Moore I need to tell you a story. Almost exactly...
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Stephanie
Dec 5, 20176 min read
It’s a wonderful life (and a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day)
The day started with a white shirt. The younger boys poured bowls of frozen blueberries after breakfast. It went downhill from there....
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Stephanie
Oct 11, 20173 min read
So Cute
Today is the International Day of the Girl. I don’t know who decides these things, or who else besides Americans would care to celebrate...
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